hey!! [8204 ; 1244am] Sorry, i've been slacking on my journal..anyway do you know what sucks?? Bein dead tired, and not bein able to sleep. I had been laying down for an hour before I came down here to update. Today I was late for work though because I wanted to lay down for about 15 minutes before i left for work and I slept until right when i was supposed to be there, so i was 5 minutes late, but my manager was fine about it. I really like being a server I actually enjoy going to work lol. Well im going to try to go to sleep. Night!*-Kaci<3 1_| Last Gasping Breath

-..<3 [72604 ; 0952pm] I never really know what to write in the subject box? But anyway, i've been pretty busy the past few days, working and hangin out with friends.. They made me a server at tuckers, and that's SOO awesome because it's more fun than being a hostess, and I can make more money. Thursday I found out that Jennifer's dad passed away, it's so terrible. I went over to her house, I wish I could make them feel better but there just isn't anything anyone can say or do. After I left her house David Arya and Andrew came over, then Saturday I worked, and Jennifer stayed all night. Sunday I got up took Jennifer home, and then went to work at 3. Today I worked with my mom all day then went to visitation for Jennifer's dad. Tomorrow is 2 good things 1)Warped Jr. Tour & 2)New Taking Back Sunday CD comes out.. Friday is my first night serving by myself, i'm soo excited! Well I will post more later.. <3*-Kaci Last Gasping Breath

*ughh.. [72104 ; 1026pm] [ mood | guilty ] [ music | Yellowcard-OceanAve. ] I am so mad..I did Laundry last night and I washed my clothes that I let hang dry, well my dad took it upon himself to dry them for me, so now everything is smaller it still fits but it's all smaller.. and then my mom is like 'kaci i hope you don't expect to get money from me, you haven't cleaned anything this week' i'm not stupid I realize that I don't get paid allowance if I don't do any chores, it's like yes please make me feel as guilty as possible. I mean I get up at 7 go to work for her until 4, go get a massage from 4:30 to 5:30, go to derby dinner to see a play from 6-10 and now I have 'my time' for an hour and then start all over again. Luckily tomorrow I work at Tuckers, so i'll have time to clean.. geez. Anyway my massage was good..I want to work it out in my budget lol so I can get one once a month. The play tonight was good. It was pretty funny too.. well gg <3Kaci*- Last Gasping Breath

hm.. [72104 ; 1059am] I'm at my mom's work right now and we just found out Lacy has cancer. She was doing better, but now the doctor is saying that there isn't any options. I hate cancer..I know it sounds terrible to say but I almost wish that god would take her because I feel like she isn't very happy and that she is just sticking around because she knows how hard it will be for Candi when she's gone. Gosh I sound like i'm talking about a person, but she is like person to my family..anyway last night Arya and I went to Derby Dinner to see a play, but after we ate dinner I got sick so we left and we're going to see it tonight. I have been really busy, but today i'm getting a massage at strandz and threads so hopefully i'll feel better after that.. Well I gotta go *-Kaci<3 Last Gasping Breath

-exciting turn of events- [72004 ; 1202am] [ mood | restless ] [ music | The Movie 'City by the Sea' ] Well today I went to work with my mom from about 10-2:30, then I went home, walked Lacy, went to a couple banks to make deposits for my mom then I came home and watched dr. phil lol I watched a little bit of oprah and then worked at tuckers from 5 until about 8:30. When I got home I called Arya and we made plans. My mom wanted me to take her and my dad to the boat and pick them up tonight but I didn't want to.. since I already made plans and I was starving, so my mom was mad but oh well. So I went and got Arya and we ate at qdoba, and then hung out at coffee crossing and then came back to aryas to watch CSI it was a great episode i liked it. Then Jennifer called me and said that her dad is 100% ok, that is SOO awesome i'm really glad that she called me and that he's ok thank god. I'm getting to be kind of busy lately tomorrow i have to be at my moms work at 8 and then i'm going home and doing laundry and cleaning then wednesday i have work with my mom.. Thursday work at tuckers friday work with my mom and friday night im hanging out with arya and david and andrew..saturday work at tuckers, sunday work at tuckers plus church, and then that tuesday is the warped jr. tour! I'm soo excited about that, it's awesome. Well so that's what i have coming up since i probably will fall behind in updates like i usually do..so i guess thats about it for my long boring update haha see ya <3Kaci*- Last Gasping Breath

FINALLY updating again.. [71704 ; 0107am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | silence ] So sorry guys, I know it's been around 2 weeks.. anyway NC was so much fun, and panama was awesome too. The band there was AWESOME so worship was awesome too. I went to journalism classes the first two days back and, yearbook is going to be a blast. Today I didn't have anything planned except to unpack and clean. I also bought a new pair of etnies that i love, the only bad part is i bet a million people have them..oh well. I bought jr warped tour tickets today, i can't wait to see yellowcard and rufio and autumn to ashes well and everyone else too lol, and then i'm seeing zztop and saliva in august with my mom lol fun fun. I start working at Tuckers Monday wait did i already type that? Ah i'm too tired<3*-Kaci ps; and just think even though I have been so busy i still had time to lose a best friend. Last Gasping Breath

Whew! [7204 ; 0601pm] I am so drained.. me and Nikki tried all day today to ski and we weren't succesful in doing so, it sucks! I was trying sooooo hard and i'm so warn out.. plus we swam from one pier (sp?) to another it was a pretty big distance and i'm just like so out of it.. yeah i'm weak!!.. Tomorrow morning we're getting up early and I AM GOING TO SKI TOMORROW!! For sure.. Anyway I am having an awesome time! Well i'm getting off see ya! *-Kaci<3 Last Gasping Breath

I'm in NC! [7104 ; 0649pm] Hey! Well I haven't updated in FOREVER but I am now.. so anyway i'm going to start from last Friday. That night I was supposed to go to the drive in with Alyssa and I completely forgot and ended up going to see 'The Notebook' with arya (it was awesome but I cried my eyes out in it lol) i'm soo sorry i didn't call u Alyssa/Emily. Anyway Saturday I went to a Bats game with Arya and her family, that was pretty fun.. Sunday I went to church and I saw Jasmin's new apartment, that she probably won't be able to afford for very long, I hope she can but I don't see how she can pull it off when she can't even pay me back the $15 she borrowed a couple weeks ago. Monday I hung out with Nik and JD that was pretty fun and then Tuesday I was supposed to hang out with Arya but being my 'best friend' and all.. she ditched me! So I was on my way to Sarah Albertson's house and Nik called so after I left Sarahs I ended up hanging out with Nik and JD again then I left Wednesday for NC it has been so much fun so far. We swam and stuff today, and i drove the Jet Ski for the first time that was really fun until we got 'pulled over' by the lake cop guys, who happened to work for the sheriffs office and be 50 year old perverts.. not fun, he was asking me where all the stuff was on the wave runner and I had no clue what he was talking about and then he so kindly re-adjusted Nikki's life Jacket for her.. yeah how nice of him. Then he was trying to help Nikki back onto the wave runner and she was lookin at him like 'don't touch me u freak!' it was funny but he was nasty I just got a warning though because I didn't have a 'sound device' in case we broke down or something and I didn't have my license on me either.. but on the overall today was fun and tomorrow we're going to attempt to ski and so that should all be fun, well i'm getting off see ya <3 Kaci*- Last Gasping Breath

T-I-R-E-D [61704 ; 0834pm] Well yeah i'm really tired..yesterday was pretty fun I worked all day that wasn't fun but I got a lot done. I came home changed clothes, washed my face and reapplied make-up then I picked up Arya and we went to the mall and then we went to the movies with a couple of friends from north harrison. We left there and I took her home and I dunno why but I started thinking about how I hadn't talked to Nik in awhile so I called him and I went to his house and we drove around for a little bit did a lot of nothing and then we stopped by Arya's for a few minutes.. We left there and went back to his house for a few minutes and put the top down on my car I had him drive because it's wierd if your driving with the top down people stare at u it's annoying anyway then we were driving around andy burton's neighborhood and we saw him walking around with evan c. it was wierd because it was like 12:15ish and they were just out walking I dunno? But we went on a walk and I would start to say something and evan and andy were like 'STOP! Say it on camera wait wait ok start again' so they recorded me saying the most random things? I dunno but then my mom called and I had to go home so nik drove to his house and I droke home and yeah that's about it, but I had to be at work at 8 and I woke up 5 minutes before I was supposed to leave i barely had time to get dressed, brush my teeth, pull my hair up and toss some make-up in my purse.. it sucked..i need sleep *-Kaci Last Gasping Breath

[61404 ; 1134pm] We are putting Lacy to sleep. My heart is breaking. Last Gasping Breath

Good Luck figuring this out if you don't know some German because this translates funky___ [61104 ; 1209am] Gut gebe ich auf Deutsch heute abend bekannt. Ich schätze, weil jeder, der genügend Zeit dauert, dieses zu übersetzen, wirklich sich interessieren muß für was diese sagt, obwohl es nicht wichtiges nichts ist. Ich wünsche, daß ich jemand mochte, weil ich sinlge für zu langes gewesen bin. Ich wirklich picky morgens zu ich schätze, weil, wenn ich war, daß hoffnungslos ich einen Freund aber, mich haben könnte nicht mit gerade jedem erlöschen möchten. Sowieso war heute abend hübscher Spaß ich und arya ging zur Kaffeeüberfahrt für ein wenig und dann nahm ich ihr Haus und ich traf meine Mamma und wir gingen zum bräunenden Bett. Ich wirklich morgens, das Dunkelheit erhält. Ich sprach mit Nik am Telefon für eine Weile heute abend, das wirklich ungewöhnliches because..we sprechen nicht viel mehr ist. Und ich schätze, der überes ist. Arbeit morgen und heraus morgen abend hängend mit Arya, wird es Spaß sein, weil wir ' Elendsviertel von Beverly Hills mieten, die Film so urkomisch ist. Ich kann nicht bis Juli warten, ist der, wenn ich zu NC mit Nikki und dann Panama und dann zu einer Journalismussache für Jahrbuch gehe. Lose Material. Gut ist das über es, sehen ya! Last Gasping Breath

___* [6904 ; 1056pm] Tonight has kind of sucked..my dad called me a spolied brat. This might sound dumb but i'm not a brat, I am spoiled though. It just proves that he doesn't even know me at all, and that kind of hurts. I wish I had a dad I could look up to or whatever, but I can barely even be in the same room with him. He like worships my sister though. Anything with us we talk about he always favors her. Ex; If Jasmin gets a bad grade on her report card my dad's response would be "Well Jasmin it's ok Kaci's grades aren't that great either" or if my mom confronts him like "Jasmin is always lying to us we can't help her" my dad will say "How do you know Kaci won't be the same way when she is 18?" What's up with that??? I dunno but nm else to say*-Kaci Last Gasping Breath

ouch! [6804 ; 1027pm] I went to the tanning bed today and my back is kind of burnt--it sucks.I'm too tired to type anymore good night*-Kaci Last Gasping Breath

[6704 ; 1233am] Have you ever made such a fool of yourself that you aren't even embarrassed about it, but you just laugh at yourself because it was THAT STUPID.. uh huh that's me lol Last Gasping Breath

..Ifeeljumpy.. [6604 ; 1137pm] [ mood | nervous ] [ music | Early November-ComeBack ] I'm like nervous lol I don't now why but i'm just all shaky..wierd. But anyway today has been pretty ok, I went to church that was the high point, I've just been pretty bored since then. I got out a card that Felicia wrote me tonight and it made me feel really good she said in it that I had changed her life for the better.. that's a big deal.. I really wish I could solve everyones prolems, make everyones life better, but i know it's unrealistic. People have to help themselves.________I'm so tired of being single, but I just don't like anybody? I dunno it's wierd. It could be worse though I could like someone that doesn't like me. But maybe some feeling would be better than none at all. i wish i was tired..*-Kaci<3 Last Gasping Breath

[6604 ; 1247am] Everytime you don't call back Everytime you lie Everytime you ditch me Everytime I die Who new it hurt worse losing a friend rather than a boyfriend or a crush? NOT ME..I wish I could just rewind the past 6 months just to get a glimpse of how things used to be, and I could trade all the time in the world just to have one hour of us the way we aren't anymore.*-Kaci Last Gasping Breath

[6104 ; 1035pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | *IRIS ] Well, I didn't take my WRITTEN TEST today because I was irresponsible and stayed up playing cards and such until 2 when I should have been studying. So I read the book all day today but I just don't feel 100% prepared, and I really don't want to fail so i'm going over some stuff tonight. I just got back from the movies, me nikki and some guy we met up there that Nikki knew, Chris Conklin? Maybe.. we saw 'the day after tomorrow' I thought it was really good, but I think Troy was kind of better.. I dunno but there is soo many hot guys in these movies i'm about to lose it lol i'm stupid. Anyway after the movie me and Nikki went to Coffee Crossing and then my sister picked us up and brought us home.. well we went by way of her boyfriends house that's in Beachwood and this guy came up to our car and was talking to my sister she knew him and he had a gun on his side I was not enjoying that very much. After we left I asked her not to put me in that position again and she agreed ..I dunno I wish she wouldn't do that kind of stuff to me. In other events , i'm kind of sad.. I really thought I knew this person, and I thought they were such a good person, but i'm questioning it. Well, I know this person is a good person but they are really starting to be a jerk and I don't know why? This is probably very confusing lol but don't you ever feel like you really knew someone and then they surprise you by doing something very out of character.. well that's how I feel. Well I need to go study. See ya*-Kaci<3 Last Gasping Breath

[53104 ; 1156pm] [ mood | groggy ] [ music | A bunch of loud people playing cards? ] I saw TROY tonight with Sarah Albertson and it was soooo good! I loved it.. Except for Orlando Bloon is so hot but he was just stupid in this movie but wow he is so freaking hot omg.. lol but anyway I have to go read the drivers manual 3 times over and try to go to sleep. My parents have like 10 people over playing Texas Holdem and the music is all loud.. of course this is all going on right under my room, so I don't know how i'm going to get to sleep.. well everyone reading this _GO SEE TROY_ <3Kaci*-see ya Last Gasping Breath

-One More Day Until I Get My License!- [53104 ; 1217pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | Brand New-Looking Back ] Oh so close! I read about 2 pages of the drivers manual though, so I need to do that sometime today. I would be really mad if I failed the test, but i'm determined to pass. Yesterday the storms were awesome, except for being at wal mart. My dad warned me and my mom that it would be bad soon but we didn't care. We left and we were walking around wal mart and there was this big crack of lightning and I jumped like a foot in the air it scared me so badly, so then my mom's cell was ringing and my dad was like "it's here you all need to come home now we have a tornado warning" so as we were making our way to the check out we heard sirens and someone came over the intercom and said "We have a tornado warning, everyone needs to go to the center of the store and no one can leave" sooo we wanted to leave but they wouldn't let us so we went to the bra section and entertained ourselves lol. We found this bra that was called 'backless and srapless' so we opened it, omg you like had to tape it to yourself? No no it was stupid. my mom and I were laying on the ground and her cell phone rang and my dad was like "Candi, I am looking at a tornado right now, and it's coming your direction" Definatly that scared me and I started crying, under the bra rack, on the wal mart floor.. weird situation. Luckily it passed us and we got home before anything else happened, when we got here though we already had a another tornado warning.. I am dogsitting for the neighbors though so I an down to there house and got them on leashes and put them in our basement. It was me my mom and dad, my dog our 2 cats, a golden retriever, and a german shepard and a few of our neighbors all hanging out in the basement. Then that also passed. So i'm alive still even though I thought I was going to die in a wal mart and today is beautiful out and here I am stuck at home lol.. I didn't intend on making this entry forever a million miles long. OH well.. <3 see y*-Kaci Last Gasping Breath

____My big sister graduated :'( [52904 ; 0910pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | Dixie Chicks! Cowboy Take Me Away.. ] Well I went to graduation this morning and it was sort of sad.. jeff cory brian ashley JASMIN they are gone wow... It was so wierd Jasmin's real mom was there and gave her hug and was like 'Ohh my baby' PUKE PUKE PUKE I'm so terrible. In other news Arya informed me that I have been being stuck up, I don't realize it though.. for those that agree i'm sorry, I do realize I have been acting different though. Hmm.. today I went swimmig and me and Arya had a dunking contest, quite exciting. I think we're going to see Raising Helen tonight, ohh fun, well I need a shower, i'm chloreneish (klor-een-ish).. <3*-Kaci Last Gasping Breath

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